Greetings. It's time for another update!
So, it's 1122pm now on a Wednesday night.
Sorry for the recent MIA too. Was busy with exams.
Well, I'm down with 3 more papers. Time really flies.
Tomorrow is my food and nutrition paper, 6th November is my Chinese paper and 11th is my science MCQ paper which is also the last day of my exams.
How great is that. And I was still whining about the start of exams as if it was yesterday.

Okay, I'm eating a little bit of food now while blogging. Oh and drinking strawberry milk. Hehe.
Will be sleeping shortly after this post is done.
Oh yes, I've received a feedback from one of my readers on askfm that my posts are becoming shorter and they lack emotions? Is it true?
If it is, I'll take note of it and try to work on it yeah.
In what way does it lack emotion? Because as you can read from my previous posts, the only emotion I displayed were sadness and emotions related to that.
And the only reason why it's getting shorter every post is because I have nothing much to talk about.
Hmmm okay maybe I can work on that. I'll find stuff to share. Be it random topics or unrelated topics. I'll just share then. :) anyway, that's what a blog is for isn't it.

Hmmm okay let's see what I can share for now.
Shall just make it a simple one tonight okay? Cause I'm tired already. Can't think properly...
You know what, let's talk about a topic that could go on for a long tome.
Love.
What is YOUR definition of love?
Have you ever been in love?
Describe love in your own ways.
How do you find love?
What do you seek for in love?
Interesting? ;) yes, well, these are some questions you might want to ponder upon.
Food for thought.
These are some questions you should ask yourself.
Feel free to share your thoughts about this with me.
I'll put my askfm link at the end of this post. :)
No worries, I'll definitely share my experiences too.
But for now, let's just say that love is something secondary for me.
I'm 18. And I guess I'm still too young for love. Maybe I just need much more time to find that perfect one.
For those of you who have been in love before, you'll understand that love really can change your life. For the better of course....erm...in a way.
When you're with the one you love, you can just ignore the whole world and give your 101% attention to that person. Am I right?
It's not something we do deliberately. But, it's something we do unconsciously because we're too in love with that person.

However, the shitty part about love is.....that you'll always wonder whether the other person feels the same way as you and whether that person loves you as much as you love him/her.
True? But it's true for me.
That's where all the jealousy, insecurities, fights and quarrels start to come in.
Followed by losing feelings bit by bit.
And you can guess the rest.
Being heartbroken is one of the worst feelings in the world. Especially when you're truly, deeply in love with that person. Trust me, I know. I feel you people out there.

Okay~ will continue again soon.
I'm typing this on my phone. So...my fingers hurt and I'm getting tired.
Just feel like chilling now.
So, goodnight!

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hey there. time to blog once again.
Well, i kinda just woke up like 30 mins ago.  i man i feel so shag.
We use the word shag as being really tired. but...the real meaning of shag is tiredness after sex. :x
hahaha, oh well. will still use the word anyway.
okay so...the main stressful papers are down.
English, Maths and social studies are all done. no more. woohoo!
Next paper is on monday. which would be the rest of the papers.
Hang in there okay? yes. One day closer to freedom. But of course, we have to work our way to freedom.

hmm okay last night came home after my papers.
went to ride around my new area for a few hours.
1 word sums it all up. Lost. hahahahaha.
Its so confusing to cycle around my area. you can turn around in circles and not even know it!
but it was really fun though. not many people would get such a chance to cycle in a city setting whenever they want to.
Therefore i should be grateful! hehe. however...i always cycle alone. cause i dont have any friends here. :( yeah. if my friends wanna ride with me, we'd either have to meet halfway around bukit timah or they would have to come here. to the city.
hehehe. People would be like "eh after the exams, lets cycle all the way to the city at esplanade!"
For me? i just have to take the lift down and cycle for about 2-3km and poof. here i am. haha!
it's really nice to ride in such an area. Why? because the people are nice and friendly, has a different atmosphere and it's also definitely more fun to ride. because of the urbanized area!

okay lets see...what else can i blog about...
actually there are many things i want to talk and share about.
most of which i would think twice and consider before sharing.
mostly becaue i want to share.......but at the same time i dont wanna talk about it anymore.
some of you might knw what is it about.
okay lets stop here before it starts filling my mind okay? ><
its halfway there alrd. damn it.
okay thats it for now. will surely update again!
keep a look out for new updated posts or you can visit my twitter to know if i have updated or not.
when im done blogging, ill always tweet it. 

Hang in there.

Hey! time to blog. hehehe.
Hmmmm, yesterday was the official start of my O levels!
I had science practical yesterday. and i must say, it was quite manageable. doable.
Was a little challenging but managed to pull through it.
And as for next week, it's the start of the written papers.
Next monday is English, Tuesday is Maths and wednesday is Maths paper 2 and Social Studies.
After that week, it's like 4-5 days break before the next paper.
So it would be like this until the 31st of October which is my fnn paper and my second last paper. My last paper? is 11 days later. -.- what the heck. i know.
So my O levels officially ends on the 11th of November.
Time really flies huh.
In my previous posts, i was still talking about how stressful my O levels would be and bla bla.
And look, im having my exams already.

Well, i must say that 2013 was indeed a fast-paced year. Everything seemed to have ended so soon.
Made new friends, felt new kinds of feelings, learnt many new values in life, forged many memories and gained many new experiences.
Lost a few friends too......but gained new and better ones.
Those that you can really call a friend and deserve your love, care and concern.

I'm currently resting which is why im blogging.
Just finished studying. Not really finished...just decided to take a break.
Why? Cause im not like those out there who can mug or study really hard.
It's just not my thing to study so hard.
But of course, i'll make sure that i have successfully revised something or have learned something new before deciding to take a break away from studying.
Can see that everyone is trying really hard to get themselves into the habit of revising lately.
At least we know that we're not alone in this. everyone else is feeling equally as stressed too...i think.
It's Friday today. Dont take it too hard on yourself.
Weekends starts tomorrow. Probably just gonna continue revising and spend some time with my family.

I just cant wait for the exams to be over.
The sooner, the better. But also means that i wont be able to see my friends again unless we meet up.
A special someone too. heh. okay shall not mention of it here.
Anyways, Wilfred wants to give a shoutout to all my readers. He's being random but he has been coaching me in my studies recently.
In case you guys dont know who he is, Wilfred and I has been friends for...6 years. Yes, it's a good long time. hehe.
In fact, he forced me to study. Literally. hahaha. Which is both good and detrimental.
With that, i shall end this post.
Will hopefully update again during the weekends.
As for now, tata!

Sunday blues. Never heard that before huh? Me too. But it feels that way now.
Currently at home. Bored. Doing nothing other than revising and doing some work as in studies.
Actually had plans today...but end up were canceled. Sigh. Oh well.

Lying on my bed. Typing this post and eating M&M's mint chocolate. Yeah, new flavour.
God I swear I'm so bored.
I know I'm suppose to be studying but seriously....who can study for one whole day non stop?
I know there are people who can....but definitely not me.
I can study for a max of 5-6 hours a day. And that's it. I can't do any longer than that.
Nothing would seem to enter my brain after it exceeds 6 hours.

Okay this coming week is the start of the exam break. Sort of.
Monday will be studying in the morning and then going out later in the afternoon.
Tuesday? Well it's Hari Raya Haji. So I have got no plans at all. Would probably just hibernate at home. Pfft.
Wednesday is another study day and I have to go back to school for extra classes. After which I have no other plans too.
Thursday is my science practica exam. Like the first exam of the entire O level schedule.
Then all the papers would slowly start to come in. And before we know it, there goes the O levels. Done and completed.

Hmmmm I don't know what else to talk about.
My phone has been really quiet. So it my life.
Well if you have a quiet life, your phone will be quiet as well.
I can just leave my phone on my bed and not touch it for hours cos I know there isn't any messages or calls or whatever.
And my phone has the ability to not light up for one whole day. And that sucks.
Well at least this allows me to concentrate more on revising.
But honestly, it sucks to have such a quiet phone. No one to text or chat with.
Hmmm, it's 3:15pm now. The day's coming to an end in a few more hours.
Well, I've got nothing else to post for now.
Apologies for the short post.
And as always, keep a look out for more updated posts.

hi hi. blog blog. hehe.
Hmmmm, one thing is one my mind now.....you. chey no lah.
It's about tomorrow. i'm having a whole lot of mixed feelings for tomrrow.
Cos tomorrow is the official last day of school lessons. It's Graduation Day.
I'm actually happy, sad, excited and worried all at the same time.
Happy because im finally graduating. LIKE FINALLY AFTER 6 YEARS! hahaha.
Yeah, so anything that has to do with graduation this year means a lot to me.
Cause i waited another extra year just to graduate. hehehe.
Sad because i wont be able to see my friends in school anymore.
Yeah, we can still meet up outside and stuff but.......we wont be sitting in class tgt again, we wont be trying our best to stay awake in class, we wont be fighting to queue up for recess and bla bla bla.
If i were to type out everything, this post would probably be chunk-ed up with words. haha.

Graduation Day. I have already planned to take photos with certain people.
AND planned to take POLAROID photos with certain ppl too.
Already have a few in mind.

hmmm okay another update of my life.
My bicycle rear wheelset is currently in a bike workshop undergoing service and repairs.
Why? cause at first i tot that the bearings had worn off, however, when the technician dismantled the wheelset and hub, he realized that it wasnt the bearing that was worn off.
Instead, it's cause that the freehub was not compatible to the axle which was why the freehub was loose and shaky when peddling or riding.
Okay i know most of you reading this now will be like......whuuuuuuuuuuuuuut?
hahaha its okay. You just need to know that it's undergoing repairs. haha.
Gladly, the technician was really nice.
It wasn't his job to get a new axle or freehub for me. BUT, he was nice enough to go the extra mile to find a freehub for me. thats so nice of him.
If everything goes well, i intend to send an email of gratitude and praise to the bike shop and that specific technician. hehe. they deserve it.
Well, the cost for the repairs would be very nice too. -.-
Would most probably be quite broke after paying for the repairs.
But it would be worth it! Cause i always had no or little confidence when riding my bike because of the hub problems. But now knowing that it has been repaired, i have more confidence and would feel more safe when riding or attempting to do stunts.

sooooo....it just rained.
It's really cold. and nice. Totally embracing the weather now.
hmmm, it's 9:10pm now. It's still early but will be knocking off quite soon.
Since its the last day of school tomorrow, better sleep early and enjoy the last day in school tomorrow before going all out for the exams.
Will post again soon~
Take care. ^^

blog blog blog~ yes, i have a little free time to do so now.
Will be back to revising or resting my mind soon. Most prolly revising. exams are nearing. sigh.
So...yeah....It's tuesday today and this week is the last week of school. officially.
Dont have school tomorrow. cos its marking day tomorrow. heh.
Therefore, shall stay home and rest and revise. yes yes.

Hmmmmmm, yknow what, lets not continue on the previous post.
It's too much for my heart too handle.
If the both of us are still in good terms, i wont mind sharing more and resuming the previous post.
But......things arent isnt what they are. yeah.
sigh okay shhhhhh.

Dont know what to post on anymore.
hmmmmmmmmmmm.
I wonder, if any of you are in my situation, what would any of you do?
How would any of you even cope with this? How would any of you feel?
If you were in my shoes.
My shoe is size 41. kinda big so....hahaha okay lame. hais.

Hmmmm, lets have a random topic okay?
What do i enjoy doing?
Well, theres many things i enjoy doing but i shall only list the main things down. hehehe.
i love cooking, eating, extreme sports, daydreaming, chilling with friends, shopping, exploring new places, adventures, observing things and of course, music.
haha okay some of the things i just mentioned is really weird.
but yeah, those are what i enjoy doing the most.
Dont ask me why. cos i wont know how to answer you. It's something i cant explain.

Hmmm, i have a random thought now.
I have yet to find the other half of me. if you know what i mean.
Am actually quite curious and keen to meet my other half. seems quite interesting yknow.
Well, i actually have ALREADY met the other half of me. and the feelings and all were perfect.
However, that other half of me decided to leave and move on.
So there i am, left hanging, broken and lost.
But yet, i dont wanna meet the other half of me cos im too traumatized by what happen previously.
I cant seem to trust anyone now. no matter how promising the person seems. in terms of love i mean.
Cause the previous one seemed promising which was why i gave her all my feelings and heart.
but i guess.......we're not meant to be after all. oh well. sigh.

sigh here i go again. god damn.
Must have a better topic to post, otherwise i'll just drift into talking about her.
no no no.
Oh well. Listening to Glee now. Glee - Clarity.
I actually enjoy Glee very much. i dont really watch their shows often but i do enjoy their music.
I enjoy any other acapella groups too. But i think one of the best Acapella groups i've ever heard and known is Glee. Every glee fan would agree.
Acapella means using mainly voices to make music and using minimal instruments and other equipment.
mmmhmmm, okay shall stop here,
Will post again tomorrow i guess.

hello once again.
I'm sitting here in front of a giant screen. In Granny's house.
It's suppose to be a god damn TV but my creative uncle made it a computer screen and honestly, im getting a really bad headache looking at this screen. my eyes hurt too.
And his Alienware keyboard is so hard to type -.-
I'm like pressing the backspace key every 4-5 words i type.

So what am i doing here? Cos it's the weekends, im suppose to go back to my house at tanjong pagar but my parents are overseas.
They are currently in Hong Kong enjoying themselves now.
okay i better type faster. the screen is making my head throb and its getting annoying using this keyboard.
and im getting a little tired...

Had a good catch up session with 2 friends today.
Went for some good food, went to a bicycle warehouse outlet and thats about it.
and to be honest, theres something that has been bothering me recently...

You.
It has been almost 7 months and counting now since we last belonged to each other.
Ever since, you've been on my mind basically everyday for the past 7 months.
yes, sounds crazy but its true. I'm not lying or trying to act pitiful here. Whats the point anyway.
for the past 10 months being together with you, i definitely did not regret a single thing.
I mean, there were definitely moments were i got so tired of quarreling and sometimes just feel like giving up on everything. but...i decided to hold on. Why? I guess it's the passion i have for you.
To be honest, yeah, we did fight a lot in our days together.
We fought 60% of our relationship.
Well, isn't that the only reason why we were able to last that long......till you decided to give up.
Ever since you left, i question myself everyday.
Why did you leave?
Am i not good enough for you?
Are you sick and tired of me already? If you are, then that isn't love. you lied then.
And many other questions that make me think a lot.
Well, if you think that i was just using you, think again and again.
If i was just using you, would i trust you so much as to tell you so many of my personal things?
Would i have sacrificed so much time,effort and money on you?
If i was using you, i wouldnt be so devastated when you left me.
If i was using you, i would have found someone new within 2-3 months.
If i was using you, i wont even care if you left me.
If i was using you, i wouldnt be typing this now.
If i was using you, you wont still be in my mind after 7 months.
But ever since that day, you seemed to have a much better life.
You seem so be able to socialize more, you seem to be smiling and laughing a lot more than before.
That's good, i feel happy for you. BUT, equally as sad because im not the source of your smiles and happiness anymore.
You seemed happier, more carefree and enjoying life more when you left me.
I guess i was a burden to you after all.
And now, you have someone taking care and loving you now. no, not your bf cos i believe you when you say that you dont have one. But the one who's caring and loving you now is your closest friend.
I'm really happy to see the both of you back tgt. really. not being sarcastic.
You have someone now, your feelings, your love and your heart has been restored. why? because now you have someone who cares and loves you as much as how i USED to.
but me...? still somewhere in the midst of getting on with life which always seems to fail.
But i know, sooner or later, as ive said in my previous posts, you'll find someone new. and i mean a boyfriend.
It's just a matter of time. trust me. After the O levels, we are all free. you'll have so much free time and im sure youll meet someone one way or another. If not? you will find someone in your poly life. I am very sure of that.
And thats where i lose you...permanently.
As for now, it seems like having or getting you back is impossible. even as a friend.
I always imagine that one fine day, i would see you walking with another boy. holding hands or hugging or kissing or just cuddling. one fine day.

I shall continue tomorrow maybe.

ahhh~ hello. time to blog once again.

crap...i forgot what i wanted to blog T.T

Had something in mind to blog about but i just cant seem to remember it now.

hmmm, lemme think, lemme think. what is it.....................................

okay forget it, cant remember. >< shall just go with the flow and see if it comes naturally.

Hmmm, next week is the last week of school.

yes, it's actually quite saddening to me...

Cause after schooling for 6 years, you've had so much experiences, fun and memories in the school that you just cant bear to leave it. It seems to be a part of me now. And now i'm like finally graduating, so the feeling is just quite sad i guess.

But at the same time, it's quite a joyous and happy thing to know.

Why? because i'm moving on to the next step in life. yeah, everyone has to go through the same thing.

And also happy because if i graduate, it also means that i dont have to see certain people anymore! 

yes, thats indeed a good thing. because looking at these people's face is inevitable in school...and by looking at them, my mood would just go like that and i would just feel frustrated, disappointed bla bla bla.

So i guess it's a good thing that im graduating soon too. 

One of the other questions that people love to ask?

When are you going to find a girlfriend? It's a good question to ask actually.

And as for me? Well, i dont plan on finding one any time soon. yeah.

Why? because i'm still kindaaaaaaaa heartbroken. mmhmm.

My previous ex was one of the best i ever had and when things ended, i had absolutely no control over it and it left quite a big impact in my life. Literally. After that day where we arent tgt anymore, i couldnt sleep, i couldnt eat, i couldnt do anything properly. Cant stay focused on anything at all. To the extend that i started feeling fatigue, i started falling sick and my grades started dropping. I just felt like giving up on everything else and life didnt seem worth living at all. Someone told me that i'm damn devoted to her. Well, devoted is a strong word and i guess you can say that. It has been almost 7 months since we broke up and i'm still trying really hard to get over her everyday. But to me, it seems that she has no problem moving on at all. she seems perfectly fine and i guess she will find someone soon. 

Let's drop this topic. Dont wish to talk about it anymore. 

Flashbacks are coming back. Stop.

Plans after exams? 

1. Work. to get money of course, duh.

2. Have a chalet. (already planned)

3. Go to USS at least twice. 

4. Go to river safari AGAIN.

5. Go to adventure cove or sea aquarium. 

6. Pursue my cycling hobby as much as i can.

7. Invest on my bicycle.

These are my main plans i guess. The rest are in tiny details and are still awaiting confirmation and such. 

hmmmm, i guess i shall stop here. 

The moment i started talking about her, i dont feel good. 

so, tata. will update again soon.