helluuuuuuu~
man, I feel so tired today. heh.
came home, had lunch and straight away knocked out. hehe.

anyways, today in class, my form teacher announced all our aggregates.
Aggregates for poly, JC, class position and English grades.
Well, as you can expect, I didn't do well. and the worst part is, my teacher demoralizes such people like me.
When she announced mine to the class, I was already mentally prepared for humiliation and shame. Also prepared for people to judge me. -.- yeah. And ready for people to look down on me.
She said "JinRong another one. Your English get A1 but you've done badly for the other subjects. what a waste. I THINK YOU BETTER GIVE YOUR ENGLISH GRADES TO SOMEONE ELSE WHO IS BETTER."
Yes, I caps that on purpose. I would like you to be me for a minute and tell me how you feel when your teacher tells you that.
Your own form teacher asking you to give your good English grades away to someone else who has done better in all the other subjects. that is just simply insulting and hurtful.
I don't understand her...and I don't want to.
And I know i'll never be good like the others.

One more thing. She shouldn't have announced it this way. because people judge you because of it.
Which is stupid I must say.
People who have done extremely well, good for you. yes, good job and keep it up.
But I am so damn sure that such people look down on people like me who have scored lower.
I am sure. god damned sure. You might say no and deny but deep down in that little heart of yours, I know what youre thinking and feeling. I know.
It's called ego and arrogance.
But what can people like me do? nothing. Because it is true that we do not excel in studies.
Nowadays, people judge others according to their education level.
I mean....you serious??
If your bestfriend/boyfriend/girlfriend failed his/her exams, youre just gonna dump them aside? is that it?
I know those of you reading this now might think that im paranoid and im thinking too much.
Well maybe I am. but I know that my theory is correct.
Maybe you guys would like to correct me? Please do let me know. text me, comment on this post, whatsoever.
I cant stand talking about this either. I don't know what else to say.
Well, I shall stop here before my post becomes too offensive. heh.