hey peeps! lets just start right away shall we? before I forget about what I have to say. hehe!
Didn't blog for the past 2 days cos I slept over my new house for the last 2 nights.
hehehe. parents (MUM) managed to persuade and convince me to sleepover for 2 nights.
so I did. hehe! didn't blog there cos I was too lazy and tired.
and busy playing game. hehehe! World of Warcraft.
Yeah, it's my childhood game till now. Playing it brings back lots of memories and feels nostalgic. It's a fantastic game though. hehe.

Anyways, this week is over. like finally. what ive been waiting for and what ive been complaining about on my previous post huh. haha!
I survived my intensive mother tongue! yay! duh~ heh.
Am glad that this week is over. However, will be looking forward for the coming week to be over too. ugh. Monday will be my O level mother tongue paper and the rest of the week would be remedial lessons the entire day. sucks, I know.

Have to get my flu vaccine ASAP. which I don't want to.............
I have a phobia of needles coming near me. Phobia of injections, vaccines and such.
I can get cut, bleed bla bla bla, but ironically, im afraid of such stuffs.
Talking about it just makes me feel uncomfortable. hehe shhhh.

Anyways, im at my old house now with my aunt.
Will be having band tomorrow.
Have been watching videos of Mnozil Brass recently. And I have to say, because of them, I feel more inspired to play LIKE them and be a better player.

hmmm, lets side track a little further shall we?
I really hate or dislike people who haven't grown mature. I mean, its okay to not be mature, but having a childish attitude really pisses me off.
And just for your info, there is a huge difference between KNOWING HOW TO HAVE FUN and BEING CHILDISH. There is no link...at all.
And I hate 2 faced people. who doesn't? heh.
People who looks and seems nice in front of you only because they put on a very good show. But, however, they talk bad about you, mock and insult you behind your back. Annoying much? indeed.
But what can we do? there definitely will be such people in this world, in this society.
So, I suggest these people grow up and get a life. A proper life.
And not always having a childish mind set with a naïve and straight forward thinking.

A sneak preview of my next post : my dream course for poly?
Social sciences. Human behaviour etc. Psychology. ;)

Hey peeps. Time to blog again~
Well, just for your info, I won't have much to blog about this week.
Mainly cos there won't be much happening I guess.
School, intensive mother tongue, band. Everyday is the same. But no worries. I'll try my best to find stuff to share or talk about! Otherwise, my posts would rather boring.

Well, yesterday was the first day of mother tongue intensive.
Hmm, managed to survive through it quite well. It was boring I swear.
Shit ass dead boring. You do literally nothing but mother tongue for 3 hours.
I really do not look forward to this week. I just want this week to end quickly man.
Anyways, yesterday after the intensive, we went to sungei buloh. A class geography trip.
It was....fun yes, because of friends. But it was darn boring too.
Went there to get a tan and get bitten by mosquitos and other weird ass insects. Hehe.
It was friends that made it all worthwhile and not that boring. Had fun though. :)

Today? Today was similar like yesterday. Just that, obviously, we didn't go to sungei buloh.
Mother tongue intensive was a killer as usual. Boring. Just plain boring that you can die from it.
Bla bla bla, school was over and went for band.
Sadly, band was boring too. Had nothing to practice. All I did was a couple of warm ups and some exercises.
No piece to work on. Which sucks actually.
Anyways, after band, went back home alone. And here I am. Lying on ma pillow and blogging this.
I'm using my phone to blog now actually. Reason is simply cos I'm just too lazy to on my lappy. Hehe.

It's 830pm right now. Nothing much for tonight.
Just gonna have my dinner soon, and probably just rot my life away. I feel so shagged.
Well, you cant blame me. This week is just dreadful.
Yeah...after dinner, I'm just gonna be a useless thing.
Hehe. Will blog again soon.

It's the weekends!
It's a rainy cold and wet Sunday morning and afternoon now~
Woke up realizing why the sun isn't up yet. heh. went to my window and realized it's all wet and pitter pattering with rain drops. hehe. What a weather to wake up to :)
Anyways, apologies for not blogging yesterday.
Yesterday went for full day band as usual. from morning till the late afternoon.
hmmm, it was okay? just generally tired. heh. felt like sleeping the whole day. hah~
I was pretty oblivious to many things and certain people on purpose to the extend that someone say that my face is so ignorant.haha!!
oh well~ that's me man. don't like me? tooooooo baaaaaaaad. lol. okay lame.

Anyway yes, im in my new house now. As usual, spending my weekends here.
Today, my relatives are coming to visit. haven't seen them for quite awhile. hehe.
nothing much already~ :)

As of now, im listening to some professional brass band's recording
Mnozil Brass. not sure if any of you have heard them at all.
But theyre really good. It's just a brass band made of 7 brass players
they have indeed inspired me to become a better musician.

hmmmmmmmmmmmm.
This coming week would be the last week of school...well, sort of.
Then the June vacation starts! yay! hehe. But im sure ill still be as busy as hell.
extra lessons, band etc etc.

okay, my relatives are here. it's bustling now. hehehe.
alright, I think I gotta go. cant let any of them know that I have a blog! hehe!
see yah!

vesak day and TGIF!

Helluuuu~! blog blog blog!
yay! its Friday! yeap! and it's a public holiday cos it's Vesak Day! duh. hehe.
Well, my day today was...okayyyyy? but very unproductive. haha!
yes, as you guessed. I went riding. To Kent Ridge Trail this time.
from 8am to 4pm. goodness me. hahaha. speechless. ><
okay okay so...that was all I did today. and now im bored -.-

Was listening to Tokyo Ska Paradise Orchestra! heheh! they're good! SKA music!
curious? go check it out! just go to YouTube and type SKA and loads of results will appear! hehe!
Tokyo Ska Paradise Orchestra has a very nice picture. hehe! shall try to do it someday with some friends! interesting~ okay.....
Anyway, was recalling back about a lot of things today.
Well, mainly because I browsed through my facebook photos and got back lots of memories!
hehehe! wont forget them! especially in band! that's what most of my facebook photos are anyway. hehe! no regrets being in band man! especially being in it for 6 years -.- haha!

Oh yah! I had my English Oral yesterday and I was the very first person...sigh. hehe.
It went well I must say. Just that...my examiner is such a pain in the ass -..- my ass.
When i'm talking, she cant even be bothered to look at me. she looks else where and gets distracted which is so annoying. I don't even know whether is she listening. well, she better be!

And, have been feeling pretty lonely recently. Or i'm not used to this?
I guess it's normal for people to be this way? Just that my previous lifestyle isn't so quiet and peaceful everyday. It used to be filled with friends, laughter and a lot of noise. haha! Not that it's all gone...it's still here, but much lesser.
I guess this is life huh?
Yeah, very quiet. my phone especially. It used to light up or vibrate every 5 mins or so. but now...it just sits there quietly for hours. Im so not used to it. gah!
Well, I guess that's about it! :)
Have shared quite a lot of stuff in this post!
Hope you enjoyed it!

helluuuuuuu~
man, I feel so tired today. heh.
came home, had lunch and straight away knocked out. hehe.

anyways, today in class, my form teacher announced all our aggregates.
Aggregates for poly, JC, class position and English grades.
Well, as you can expect, I didn't do well. and the worst part is, my teacher demoralizes such people like me.
When she announced mine to the class, I was already mentally prepared for humiliation and shame. Also prepared for people to judge me. -.- yeah. And ready for people to look down on me.
She said "JinRong another one. Your English get A1 but you've done badly for the other subjects. what a waste. I THINK YOU BETTER GIVE YOUR ENGLISH GRADES TO SOMEONE ELSE WHO IS BETTER."
Yes, I caps that on purpose. I would like you to be me for a minute and tell me how you feel when your teacher tells you that.
Your own form teacher asking you to give your good English grades away to someone else who has done better in all the other subjects. that is just simply insulting and hurtful.
I don't understand her...and I don't want to.
And I know i'll never be good like the others.

One more thing. She shouldn't have announced it this way. because people judge you because of it.
Which is stupid I must say.
People who have done extremely well, good for you. yes, good job and keep it up.
But I am so damn sure that such people look down on people like me who have scored lower.
I am sure. god damned sure. You might say no and deny but deep down in that little heart of yours, I know what youre thinking and feeling. I know.
It's called ego and arrogance.
But what can people like me do? nothing. Because it is true that we do not excel in studies.
Nowadays, people judge others according to their education level.
I mean....you serious??
If your bestfriend/boyfriend/girlfriend failed his/her exams, youre just gonna dump them aside? is that it?
I know those of you reading this now might think that im paranoid and im thinking too much.
Well maybe I am. but I know that my theory is correct.
Maybe you guys would like to correct me? Please do let me know. text me, comment on this post, whatsoever.
I cant stand talking about this either. I don't know what else to say.
Well, I shall stop here before my post becomes too offensive. heh.

hey hey hey~ back again!
time to share about my day i guess? hehe.
Wasnt late for school today! hah!
everything else was pretty normal -.- as usual......
ugh! it's stuff like this that always make my mind blank and i dont know what to blog about.
but it's okay, i'll think of something!
anyways, after school, went for band practice. like finally. after such a long break from band.
feels good to be back in band again...but the people in band seemed...erm, well lets not talk about it yeah.
so bla bla bla~ and that's it for today. hehe.

This week is normal school. and next week is Mother Tongue intensive before the school holidays -.- damn. must they do this? like hours of Chinese lesson. I totally suck in chinese man.
hmmm side track a little. i've been listening to a song recently.
Snow Patrol - What if the storm ends?
it's a really good song and it's the soundtrack of the upcoming movie ; EPIC.
Go check the movie trailer and the song!
Well, today's post shall be a bit short. but no worries. next few posts shall find more things to talk and share about.
shall end here~!

Monday blues.

hey people! yay back on blogging. hehe.
Well, as usual, lets start from yesterday shall we?
-rewind-
Yesterday huh...hmmmm. I went to the Navy Open House.
Yeap, pretty rare for me to go such places but it's actually to accompany someone too.
The Open House was...nice i guess?
Well it was extremely hot and flooded with people and foreigners but put that aside and the Open House was pretty impressive i must say.
For a free-entry open house, i think they've done a good job.
Saw many naval warships and such.
Managed to queue and board the USS FREEDOM warship.
It's an American warhsip. Yes, real foreign warships with genuine ship crews.
Overall, it was quite a good day.

And as for today? As usual, late for school. hehe.
School today was boredom. total boredom. Got back our Mid-Year Exam results too. And i shall not talk about it. heh.
Well, since last night, i felt so lethargic in a good way.
I dont know how to explain this feeling or how to describe how i feel.
man, this is weird. heh!
I feel good, but i dont even know whether this feeling is good or bad...meaning is it beneficial to me or smth like that.
okay i have no idea what im talking about...

Days to come? Next week is the last week of school before the June holidays.
Am pretty packed and loaded up during this June holidays.
Have supplementary classes, outings, band practices, band camps and my band is going to Taiwan.
Yeah, quite a hectic June schedule. but will definitely have some free time i guess.
okaaaaayyyyy, that's all i guess?
hmmmmmmmmmmmmm. yeap, thats about it.
Will blog again tomorrow!

Weekends part 2.

Well, that's the end of Saturday.
It's almost 1am now...and I feel tired, yes. But I don't feel sleepy. In fact, I'm hungry. ._. Damn.
Life of a biker. Hahaha! Always hungry at the wrong time.

Today was...okay I guess? Was literally in zombie mode. No, really.
My mood was shallow. I kept quiet almost the entire day. I didn't have mood for anything. Didn't bother to check my phone often (it was quiet anw), my mind wasn't working, and my soul felt empty.
Yup, that was how I felt today.
I suspect that it has something to do with the dream I had last night that affected me.
Well at least the weather's nice.

You know, there is this huge major problem with me.
My mind.
It's the most powerful thing in the universe. I just realized.
My mind is....fascinating in both great and horrible ways.
I can over think. Yes. Everyone does. But for me, it's to the extend of detailed overthinkings and it can affect me so badly and sometimes even make me paranoid.
And the thing is...I don't even have to try. It comes naturally.
As long as I start thinking of something out of the blue or out of randomness, my mind continues the rest of it.
See how powerful it can be? And I can't stop. Really. I can't help it.
I can't stop no matter how much I want to. More like my mind is controlling me you see.
Lemme make things more interesting by giving you an example...
Hmmmmmmmmmm...lets see.
Let me watch a very disturbing horror movie and that's it.
I will not be able to sleep well for weeks. I'll think about it all the time and make it even worse.
I'll get so paranoid that it would affect my daily life and routines.
Well, that's just a small example of how my mind works.
If you think I'm boasting, then you should probably click the small red cross on the top right hand corner of this screen. Because I am not proud of having such a mind. It sucks, really.
Maybe that's why I should isolate myself more often.
Yeah...

Wanted to share more things but I guess that's it for the night.
Will share more stuff as posts go by.
No one likes to read something so wordy and clogged up with words anyway.
This post shall end here y'all.

Weekends.

Well, good afternoon earthlings. It is now exactly 12pm. On a cold and chilly Saturday afternoon.
I must say, I love the weather. No doubt about it.
It's dark, gloomy, cold, windy and just feels so....nice.
I love the weather. I know I'm weird. Cos usually people would love sunny days. Lol.

Anyways, yesterday first.
Well after I went to ride with the birthday boy yesterday, the both of us came to a conclusion.
Yesterday, there was something very wrong with the world.
Everything just seemed wrong. It's quiet, very quiet. Everyone seems to be hiding somewhere or minding their own business. Streets are quiet, social networks are quiet. Damn. We almost went mad. What a depressing day. Phone was darn quiet as well.

After that, went home to rest. So I did.
Then slowly packed my stuff to move over to my new house.
Dinner last night with mum was awesome too. We went to this authentic Japanese restaurant that sells ramen.
Food was really good, service was acceptable and price was moderately affordable.
Well, I sometimes feel awkward and uncomfortable going to such traditional restaurants cos I'm afraid that certain things I do that I'm unaware of might offend their tradition or culture. Yeah. Paranoid. Hehe.

So here I am, on my bed. In my new house. Without wifi....-.-
Using my phone to blog. The power of technology, yes.
Plans for today? Not very sure too. Just hope it wouldn't bore me to death.
That's about it I guess?
Will blog again soon!

TGIF! yeap! it's friday people! yaaaaaay.
but....i dont seem to have any plans...shucks. :/
okay wait wait...yesterday first!

hmmmm. yesterday was learning journey. yup. some kind of out-of-class activity.
Went to URA building. Urban Development Agency. Learnt about Singapore's history bla bla.
and god, i swear it was boring. felt so helpless too cos it was damn boring and theres nothing i could do about it. haha.
so after the trip, didnt know where to go. was so free. hehe. Friends and I decided to go play pool. Unfortunately, the placae we went was closed -.- bitch. so we went for bowling at Bukit Batok! :)
Had much fun there. bowling balls and eating hehe.
after that? i went home .___. yeah. i slept. cos im still sick anw.
slept for about 2-3 hours? then woke up and did some productive stuff such as doing the laundry and cleaning the floor. Around 8+, waited for a friend downstairs my house to help him install his new wheelset and damn was it tedious. haha!
Since when did i become a bike technician?? haha! but its okay. was pretty successful anyway.
So that was yesterday! :)

And for today? hmmm. here i am once again in front of my lappy listening to songs and typing this...
probably going for a ride with a friend soon for breakfast. after that erm....i dont know what to do anymore. any ideas anyone? it's a friday! i dont wanna waste my precious fridays doing nothing.
okay now theres some idiot drilling -.- i hate that so much.
what to do what to do what to do what to do what to do??? awwww :(
Will blog again soon! :) prolly later today!


note to self of the day : i have to stop living in the past. i must stop living in the past.

back on blog.

oh wow. blog. its been ages since i last been here. i forgot what brought me back here again but...oh well.
Decided to create a new blog. reason is simple ; just wanna start a new and simple blog where i can share my thoughts and feelings.
hmmmm, well, my life hasnt been blooming with great things recently. As usual, just the same'ol crap everyday. hmmmm, lets start from....last week?
Last week was still the exam week. Had pretty hard times trying to get myself to focus and study. Dont know why but it doesnt seem possible. Even if i manage to do it, it doesnt last long. Last Friday, went cycling with some friends. ride, jump, fall, as usual. :) Then i went to my new house. It's at Tanjong Pagar. Yeah i know, far. i agree with you but, what choice do i have?
So to clear things out, i now live in 2 places. One, is with my aunt during weekdays at Jurong. Two, is my new house at Tanjong Pagar during the weekends. havoc. pfft.
aaaaanyways, during the weekends, checked out the house, helped to unpack some stuff and such. and last Sunday which was mother's day, i caught a fever. yup! Woke up in the morning with a temperature of 38.1. bam! felt like shit. haha.


bla bla bla...


Yesterday was my last paper. yay! end of the Mid-Year Exams. well, not the end of the O-levels but still, something worth being happy for. hehe.
I shall not tell everything i did in detail. cos that would be too...revealing i guess? maybe only on certain stuffs.


So here i am...sitting in front of my lappy typing this.
It's raining heavily now. Thunderstorm i suppose. i like it! especially when it's at night.
My fever's gone down. but my flu is acting up. so is my cough. damn.
bought 2 nice shirts at Uniqlo just now. damn were they expensive.
2 shirts for almost $40. ahh, it's not everyday that i shop. so it's alright!
Tomorrow? I have some crappy learning journet thingy in school. -.-
yeah...dont ask. i dont wanna be there too but i have to. oh well, at least theres friends..!
not very sure what am i gonna do after that anyway.
Well, that's about it i guess? just a rough summary of my recent life.
will blog again soon. definitely! :)



ps. dont ask about the URL.
Note to self of the day : Be more ignorant. You care too much for nothing.