(For this post, read it while listening to the song Everyday by Carly Comando)
hello. since im bored and have got nothing to do, why not blog?
I didnt want to blog at first, cause i seem to have nothing to blog about.
BUT, just 15 mins ago, i made myself a peanut butter bread.
So i took the bread to the window and ate it there while admiring the scenery.
Looking down, i saw this old granny pushing a cart full of heavy cardboards.
It seriously looked damn heavy cause it was overflowing with cardboards.
Anyway, she was crossing a dangerous road while pushing it. And given her age, she was pushing it slowly, so i saw many cars slowing down just to let her cross and get to the other side.
When she successfully reached the other side unscathed, there lies the next problem.
The entrance to the pathway is blocked by 3 metal barricades in a form of poles, probably used to stop motorists from driving onto the pathway.
So this granny tried to roll the cart up the pathway but she couldnt because firstly, she lacked the physical strength to do so. Secondly, the barricade pole was blocking the cart.

She kept trying....while i was looking down from the 23rd floor and eating my PB bread against the window.
I actually felt like going down just to help her get the cart across. really.
Then, acts of true kindness starts kicking in~
A young adult approached her and tried to push the cart too, but failed. He kept trying though.
Then, an old man came by, stopped and decided to help too.
Lastly, 2 other men came and helped.
A total of 4 strangers helped this granny move her cart to the pathway.
These 4 strangers never knew each other.....neither did they know the granny, but they managed to combine efforts and move the cart.
It was really heart warming and i felt really good after seeing it.
Humanity isnt lost after all.

This was, by far, the nicest thing i've ever seen today.
Yes, that sentence pretty much explains how boring my day was too.
Anyways, those were indeed true acts of kindness.
After seeing a helpless granny trying to get an overloaded cart full of cardboards onto the pathway, 4 men, strangers in all, came by her side and aided her.
It really made me feel good. really good.

So, why cant everyone be like this 4 men?
It only takes you a few seconds or a few minutes to help someone who is in need.
Besides, you feel really good after helping the person, so why not? 
If everyone, or at least majority of the people are like that, the society would be a better place for everyone. dont you think so?
If you were trying to push a trolley loaded with groceries up a curb but you cant because you dont have enough strength or something is blocking your path, dont you wish someone would come and help you?
Plus, that granny is old and i assume that the cardboards she was pushing was her daily bread and butter. Meaning, she sells those cardboards for a living.
In conclusion, it only takes a small period of time for you to help someone and it could go a long way and make a big difference.
So, why not?

yes, i know, have disappeared for quite a long time.
well, ive been really busy pulling myself together and making crucial decisions for my next step in life.
Yeah, i didnt do so well for my O levels, i wont say my results here.
But, thats over now. Main thing is to decide what i wanna do next in my life.
1. ITE? higher nitec.
2. Private diploma?
3. Army?
4. Poly?
These 4 options have their pros and cons, advantages and disadvantages.
Each of these options have their own setbacks.
Therefore, it is really difficult to decide.

Okay so currently, i wish to apply for a private institution.
Known as MDIS. some of you might heard of it, some of you might not.
MDIS is a private institution just like SIM.
I plan to go there to take my professional certificate in psychology and then diploma and so on and forth.
Yes, they provide courses too. and i want to take the course that i have the most interest in for a long time, School Of Psychology.
However, sadly, my interest has the least options in the future.
Meaning, if i take the path of psychology, my pathway, future job opportunities will be very narrow.
Why? Because in Psychology, you need a minimum of a DEGREE or MASTERS to get you a good place in the workforce.
Yes, a diploma is still a certificate, but it is not very recognized, plus the fact that it is from a private institution, my chances are slimmer.
I have done my research for the past 4 days.
Yes, non stop research and planning for this. I have been to so many websites, took down so many notes and information, called private institutions regarding enquiries and even attended a roadshow by MDIS earlier today at Orchard.
This is how dedicated i am in taking up psychology.
Yes, i do understand that it would be a very tough, stressful and tedious pathway, but what choice do i have?
Yes you can say why not go to ITE, but think about it, ITE offers me courses that i have totally no interest in. How am i going to study something for 2 years when i dont even like it.

i have quarreled with my parents and aunt over this.
You know parents nowadays, they dont trust anything that isnt under the government which in this case, is MDIS. They are just worried that i do not have a future or have a hard time finding a job when i grow up.
But please, there are many opportunities out there, i am sure i can find a decent job with a psychology cert.
I have quarreled with my aunt too...
why? because she is studying as a psychiatrist. Not related to Psychology, but somewhat the same path. She recently have been awarded 2 degrees and a masters. That, i have to respect. and she is hitting 40 soon.
I listen to her more about this because she has the most experience regarding this.
She keeps emphasizing the fact that this path is not good and risky and might not be able to find a job in the future.
I understand that she is worried too.
And please, i do not make my decisions rashly or impulsively. I think through hard and think for many days and do my own research. Which is why i am very reluctant to give up MDIS and the school of psychology.

I will definitely keep this blog updated on what happens next, whether i have successfully been admitted into the school or some other options.
All i need, is some support from my aunt or parents and i'll have more confidence in what im doing.
thats all for now.

since im pretty bored and using my lappy, why not blog. heh.
It's a lazy Sunday afternoon.
Actually its about to be evening. It's almost 630pm now.
I woke up pretty late today.
Just felt the sudden urge to sleep longer, and so i did.
Didnt do much today, well, its sunday anyway. Nothing much i can do.
Getting more bored as the days go by. bored and lonely.
And you've been wondering what have i been doing. hehe.
Wont say it here.

Anyways, i feel...different.
I dont know man. Whether is it a good or bad thing.
It feels like a good difference but i dont know how to explain it.
It just feels better i guess?
Oh what am i talking about. I just feel that my life has changed and everything seems different to me now.
I still happen to have some old memories stored in my head but majority of them have probably been erased or something i dont know.
I feel weird, different and changed. yup.
Yes, i agree that i definitely feel much lonelier and anything else related to that.
But there is something else other than that.
and THAT is what i cant seem to explain or know.
Heh, oh well, as long as its a good feeling then i guess i wont have to bother so much eh. hehe.

sometimes i just feel like closing down this blog.
Why? because even though i still blog, occasionally, i cant seem to be bothered to keep it alive. heh.
But, will not close this blog down. Will just keep it idle, dead or with constant updates.
Will have to see my mood on whether i feel like blogging or not too actually.
If my mood isnt as good, then my posts will be short and boring and you wont enjoy reading it either. heh.
Yeah, no worries, will not close down this blog. Will still update it whenever possible.
And though no one or only a few people read this, it's okay.
I dont want many people reading my blog anyway. Just a small number or none at all is fine.
Im okay with it. Anyway the reason for me having a blog is just to share about events in my life and talk about certain things, not to attract attention or whatever.

oh yeah, my sickness? its recovering well.
Finally feeling much better than before. Thanks goodness.
Finally pulled through being very very sick for more than 1 week.
Thats just horrible. heh.
okay well, i have nothing more to say for now.
It is a boring Sunday anyway. toodles!

yes, i know ive disappeared for quite some time. heh.
well, im really bored now so shall blog. hehe.
2013 is over. Thanks goodness. it was a horrible year. really.
one of the worse years that i ever had in my life and im glad its over.
Welcome to the year of 2014! hopefully would be a better year huh.

Well, im trying to find something to keep myself occupied and busy for the next few months.
And i have no idea yet.
Ever thought of writing a book of my own. possible, but i would only want to do that on a typewriter.
Not because of fun purposes please.
Because using pen and paper would be too tedious and tiring.
Using the computer would be bad for the eyes after prolonged usage.
Therefore, i feel that a typewriter would do just fine. Classic and nostalgic.
Perfect for using for long periods of time and good for writing.
Well otherwise it wont be called a typewriter. heh.

This book that im going to be writing will be about life.
I mean...what easier way to express yourself through a book about your own life.
Yeah, this book would be like a biography.
A book about me.
Not about bragging or showing off.
But rather, about how i grew up, my childhood, some of my little secrets, my accomplishments, failures, disappointments, setbacks, goals and such.
yeap, would be of that sort.
Would do my best to make it like a real book.
With a prologue, epilogue and chapters in between.
Have no sponsors or company or whatsoever, so this should be easy. no complications.

Wow, i started this blog post in the afternoon and continued in the night. hehe.
Well, anyway, the whole day today, was making some life decisions and what to do next with my life.
Finally decided on some things. Will not say it here i guess.
Dont plan to let the whole world know. heh.
I guess thats all for now, will update again soon when necessary. hehe.