greetings earthlings~! It is me, coming back to revive my ancient blog.
It's been ages since i last blogged.
Well, barely have the time and dont have the feel. so why am i blogging now?
cause i have the feel to. duh. hahaha

It is now 1045pm on a Tuesday night. Sitting here typing on my lappy with a slice of peach tofu cheesecake by my side. hehe
So hows life? Life has been fine. Still surviving i guess. It has ups and downs for sure.
But hey! it's alrd december! few more weeks and it will be the end of one whole year alrd and the start of a new one!
Time really flies. It does. There goes 2014.
And if you asked me what have i accomplished in 2014, i wont know how to answer you.
Either that or i forgot what i have accomplished. hah.
But i can say one thing for sure. And that is that 2014 was not a good year for me at all.
In fact, i think that 2014 has not been a good year for many of us. Dont know why too.
But yeah, sucky year. just feel that way. Too many bad things that has happened this year.
Okay moving on~

So the holidays are nearing....my plans?
Nothing much cause the holidays isnt really long for me. It's only about 3 weeks to a month.
This week is my last week of school and then im free as a bird.
plans plans plans...hmm lets see.
Going to KL with my track and field team from 15-18 of december.
Purpose is just go there and train with malaysian athletes. A good exposure and learning experience i guess. But....its okay i guess? 3 days of tough training and good food and fun with track mates.
It's gonna be fun....hopefully.
Other than that, i dont think i have any plans at all....sad.
Probably just gonna enjoy the holidays, embrace waking up late and staying up late nights.
Gonna do my usual hobbies like cycle, maybe swim and such.
Might even head over to Ubin with some friends for some bike adventure. But we'll see how it goes.
Most importantly the weather.

The future? Well, my future is pretty uncertain now. really. theres nothing much i can do till after i obtain my higher nitec cert or finish my NS.
So as of now, i just need to endure my studies.
It's just 1 and a half more years and im out of this hell hole. Looking forward to graduating.
hahaha i just bold that.
After my higher nitec? It depends. If im able to continue studies in poly, why not?
If not, i rather complete my NS first.
Yeah, after my higher nitec, theres a chance that im going to serve my NS first.
It's exciting yet scary. But definitely looking forward to it.

Mum said to me just now : Hope you get married in 5-10 years time.
I was shocked to hear that. 5-10 years? isnt that a bit too soon???
10 years okay la, but 5 years is really too soon.
Well, to make my mum happy, i better start looking for a steady girlfriend that im gonna marry.
Cannot play play around already. I'm already 19 this year. Not in primary or secondary school anymore. Cannot puppy love.
The next girlfriend that i have would most probably be the one that i am going to marry.
Idk, it depends too.
But yah, must really be realistic alrd.

Okay that's all i guess?
Hopefully will blog again. hopefully. keyword here is hopefully. haha.
toodles~!

(i really think i should change my URL. its damn gay.)

Well, it has been ages since i last touched my blog. a few months i guess.
all my previous post mention that i will keep this blog alive and update whenever i can.
That doesnt seem to be the case. hahaha.
okay, here's a little update on my life.

It's October already. Time really flies this year.
7 months into my school alrd.
Which means 1 year and 5 more months to graduation. Cant wait.
First semester's result was pretty good. i wont say my GPA here though.
It was satisfying but not good enough. didnt really met my expectations.
Have to work harder.
Currently in second semester. So many new modules.
Fashion elective, visual graphics, leadership elective etc etc.
It's gonna be a tough semester with everything squeezed into 2 months before the December hols.
Friends? haha. the least of my problems now i guess.
To me, everyone is my friend. But there are only a small handful that i can TRUST.
And of course there are others whom i avoid for certain reasons such as being two faced or giving bad vibes.
Well, thats about it for school.

CCA? for the sake of those who dont know what CCA im in, it's Track and Field.
Currently having competitions this week and the next.
Coach placed me in 3 grueling events.
3000m, 3000m steeplechase and 800m as well as 4x400m reserve.
I've completed by 3000m steeplechase this week.
The rest of the events are next week.
And.... i got shin splints.
It's caused when your calve muscles are too tight, then your shin starts taking in and absorbing all the pressure and impact.
This will soon cause a stress fracture and then in serious cases, a major fracture.
Ouch.
The steeplechase might have aggravated it and made my shins worse.
Gonna start wearing a shin support.
If it doesnt get any better, have to see a doctor asap.
On the brighter side, my team, or rather my college is taking the lead in the scoreboard.
Road to victory.

Hmmmm let see... what else?
Ahh yes. I've just attended a Navy seminar earlier today.
Was a good talk. but of course, it was quite dry and long.
Managed to clear my doubts on certain stuff but still a little confused.
Currently trying to apply for the MDES scholarship from Navy.
And also signing on the RSN, Royal Singapore Navy.
If i dont get the scholarship, its okay.
I'll just wait until graduation and then sign on straight to Navy.

Last but not least. How has my life been going?
Well, as you can see from what i've typed above, life has been pretty hectic for me.
But nonetheless, still managed to find time to do the things i love such as gaming, making music, disturbing my mum and so on.
I'm guessing its gonna be a hell more hectic from now on with so many things to learn and catch up on in school.
Life has been on the borderline lately. Not much ups nor downs.
Well if i fracture my shin then its going all the way down.
But so far, still doing fine.
Learned a few good life lessons too recently.
To not care what others think of you.
Avoid those that make your life miserable or hinders you.
Do what you love and of course, hang around more with the ppl that makes you happy.

Cant really think of anything else to blog about now.
That's about it i guess?
Shall end here yah. Hopefully will update soon? hehehe.
Farewell. 

i always say that i'll try to keep the blog alive...but i always fail. haha.
Well thats because im busy with school and all that. barely have the time to turn on and use my lappy...except for weekends.

It's alrd June....how time flies.
Half of 2014 has just passed. thats really fast.
getting the hang of school...trying to enjoy it and make it as productive as possible.
Well, proud to say that ever since the first day of school till now, i have not fallen asleep in class before. heheh have been listening attentively.
I hope i can keep this up for the rest of my time in this school.
Track and Field training's getting tougher too. But i gotta admit, i gained so much experience when i was a newbie. Coach made us go for 2 competitions when still a newbie. really had the experience.

Modules getting tougher, training getting harder and soon, will be loaded with assignments, projects and competitions. Yeah its gonna be tiring but thats what makes school fun.
Without all these, school everyday would just be a waste.

Have been thinking a lot lately too...
Like what am i going to do after i finish my higher nitec?
Go to poly? Serve NS? Sign on the Navy?
Yeah, so many things on my mind.
But i most probably want to serve NS first. Why? because it seems like a burden somehow.
Either way, have to serve my 2 years sooner or later. so might as well serve it fast.
Might want to sign on the Navy though. And get a scholarship and study part time in poly.
Well, thats just my plan. anything could happen in between.

But i promise myself something, from today till the day i enlist for NS, i will take care of you, pamper you, etc.
Because the moment i enter NS, i cant do any of that anymore.
And by the time im out......you would probably be with someone else already. in love.
So, i might as well love and take care of you as much as i can now...before you replace me with someone else.
The thought of it scares me but.....it's gonna happen sooner or later. so might as well be mentally prepared. Just like having the fear of injections but you know that you still have to go through it.
Yeah, its the same logic.
I have this "motto" that i live by now.
"It's either you, or nothing."
Pretty simple to understand. and means a lot. i hope you understand.
and if you're reading this, dont feel pressured. if you already found someone you love or enjoy being with, go ahead.
For me, it's either you, or nothing. Means i either get back with you and get married and die tgt with you....OR, nothing. i wont find someone else. i dont want to anyway.
You'd probably have no feelings for me by now. zero. absolutely no feelings.
I know it. By the way you talk to me, by the way you treat me and your body language tells me so.
Maybe im wrong? who knows. but im quite sure your feelings have faded to oblivion.
Well, that's all for now. finger pain alrd. haha.
Will blog again....soon?

damn sonnn~ my blog is officially dead man. hahaha.
whatever happened to "trying to update it every once in awhile" haha.
Well, have been "busy" i guess.
Busy working, applying and registering for school, deferring NS and such.
Barely use my laptop nowadays anyway.
Cause i seldom play games and theres nothing much i can do on my laptop.

Anyways, ive finally stopped working.
Want to enjoy whats left of my holidays before school starts.
Did quite a lot of admin stuff this month.
And damn how time flies...its alrd like what.....24th march?!
thats damn fast. ive been questioning myself, what have i been doing for the past 3 months +?
hahaha. and in a few more days time, its April already. I like April, idk why.
Not only because its my birthday month, but it feels like a special and nice month to me.
i hope.

Though i know that no one would be reading this, ill still update it nonetheless, since i have nothing to do and am quite bored.
Life has been okay i guess? ups and downs as usual.
Not many downs, so thats good.
Hope it stays like this for the rest of the year. heh.

What i did today?
Woke up quite early to meet a friend down at Bukit Timah for a trail session.
It has been a long time since i last hit the trails/off road.
The last time was ....last year i think?
Reason being that i now live in the central, it's a concrete jungle man.
Theres no where for you to ride off road. hahaha. its all urbanized. hais.
Second reason because my bike is not meant for off road.
I have a single rear brake, my frame geometry is not meant for off road and im using single speed.
It's just all the reasons not to go off road.
But i did anyways. hahaha. it was dangerous but hey, life isnt fun without taking some risks.
So....hit the trails with ma friend. it was good.
Through that session, i realized my stamina has dropped like crazy. damn.
It was a good run though. despite the sun being a jackass, everything else was cool.
Rode some downhills, screwed up rocky terrains and such.
Good way to spend my monday.

So here i am, at home, feeling shagged but good. wait, not that good. heh.
my mum just came home. as usual, starting her daily routine of nagging.
and yeah, my mind is blank now and i cant think of anything else to blog about.
Guess i'll end here.
byebye! 

 (For this post, read it while listening to the song Everyday by Carly Comando)
hello. since im bored and have got nothing to do, why not blog?
I didnt want to blog at first, cause i seem to have nothing to blog about.
BUT, just 15 mins ago, i made myself a peanut butter bread.
So i took the bread to the window and ate it there while admiring the scenery.
Looking down, i saw this old granny pushing a cart full of heavy cardboards.
It seriously looked damn heavy cause it was overflowing with cardboards.
Anyway, she was crossing a dangerous road while pushing it. And given her age, she was pushing it slowly, so i saw many cars slowing down just to let her cross and get to the other side.
When she successfully reached the other side unscathed, there lies the next problem.
The entrance to the pathway is blocked by 3 metal barricades in a form of poles, probably used to stop motorists from driving onto the pathway.
So this granny tried to roll the cart up the pathway but she couldnt because firstly, she lacked the physical strength to do so. Secondly, the barricade pole was blocking the cart.

She kept trying....while i was looking down from the 23rd floor and eating my PB bread against the window.
I actually felt like going down just to help her get the cart across. really.
Then, acts of true kindness starts kicking in~
A young adult approached her and tried to push the cart too, but failed. He kept trying though.
Then, an old man came by, stopped and decided to help too.
Lastly, 2 other men came and helped.
A total of 4 strangers helped this granny move her cart to the pathway.
These 4 strangers never knew each other.....neither did they know the granny, but they managed to combine efforts and move the cart.
It was really heart warming and i felt really good after seeing it.
Humanity isnt lost after all.

This was, by far, the nicest thing i've ever seen today.
Yes, that sentence pretty much explains how boring my day was too.
Anyways, those were indeed true acts of kindness.
After seeing a helpless granny trying to get an overloaded cart full of cardboards onto the pathway, 4 men, strangers in all, came by her side and aided her.
It really made me feel good. really good.

So, why cant everyone be like this 4 men?
It only takes you a few seconds or a few minutes to help someone who is in need.
Besides, you feel really good after helping the person, so why not? 
If everyone, or at least majority of the people are like that, the society would be a better place for everyone. dont you think so?
If you were trying to push a trolley loaded with groceries up a curb but you cant because you dont have enough strength or something is blocking your path, dont you wish someone would come and help you?
Plus, that granny is old and i assume that the cardboards she was pushing was her daily bread and butter. Meaning, she sells those cardboards for a living.
In conclusion, it only takes a small period of time for you to help someone and it could go a long way and make a big difference.
So, why not?

yes, i know, have disappeared for quite a long time.
well, ive been really busy pulling myself together and making crucial decisions for my next step in life.
Yeah, i didnt do so well for my O levels, i wont say my results here.
But, thats over now. Main thing is to decide what i wanna do next in my life.
1. ITE? higher nitec.
2. Private diploma?
3. Army?
4. Poly?
These 4 options have their pros and cons, advantages and disadvantages.
Each of these options have their own setbacks.
Therefore, it is really difficult to decide.

Okay so currently, i wish to apply for a private institution.
Known as MDIS. some of you might heard of it, some of you might not.
MDIS is a private institution just like SIM.
I plan to go there to take my professional certificate in psychology and then diploma and so on and forth.
Yes, they provide courses too. and i want to take the course that i have the most interest in for a long time, School Of Psychology.
However, sadly, my interest has the least options in the future.
Meaning, if i take the path of psychology, my pathway, future job opportunities will be very narrow.
Why? Because in Psychology, you need a minimum of a DEGREE or MASTERS to get you a good place in the workforce.
Yes, a diploma is still a certificate, but it is not very recognized, plus the fact that it is from a private institution, my chances are slimmer.
I have done my research for the past 4 days.
Yes, non stop research and planning for this. I have been to so many websites, took down so many notes and information, called private institutions regarding enquiries and even attended a roadshow by MDIS earlier today at Orchard.
This is how dedicated i am in taking up psychology.
Yes, i do understand that it would be a very tough, stressful and tedious pathway, but what choice do i have?
Yes you can say why not go to ITE, but think about it, ITE offers me courses that i have totally no interest in. How am i going to study something for 2 years when i dont even like it.

i have quarreled with my parents and aunt over this.
You know parents nowadays, they dont trust anything that isnt under the government which in this case, is MDIS. They are just worried that i do not have a future or have a hard time finding a job when i grow up.
But please, there are many opportunities out there, i am sure i can find a decent job with a psychology cert.
I have quarreled with my aunt too...
why? because she is studying as a psychiatrist. Not related to Psychology, but somewhat the same path. She recently have been awarded 2 degrees and a masters. That, i have to respect. and she is hitting 40 soon.
I listen to her more about this because she has the most experience regarding this.
She keeps emphasizing the fact that this path is not good and risky and might not be able to find a job in the future.
I understand that she is worried too.
And please, i do not make my decisions rashly or impulsively. I think through hard and think for many days and do my own research. Which is why i am very reluctant to give up MDIS and the school of psychology.

I will definitely keep this blog updated on what happens next, whether i have successfully been admitted into the school or some other options.
All i need, is some support from my aunt or parents and i'll have more confidence in what im doing.
thats all for now.

since im pretty bored and using my lappy, why not blog. heh.
It's a lazy Sunday afternoon.
Actually its about to be evening. It's almost 630pm now.
I woke up pretty late today.
Just felt the sudden urge to sleep longer, and so i did.
Didnt do much today, well, its sunday anyway. Nothing much i can do.
Getting more bored as the days go by. bored and lonely.
And you've been wondering what have i been doing. hehe.
Wont say it here.

Anyways, i feel...different.
I dont know man. Whether is it a good or bad thing.
It feels like a good difference but i dont know how to explain it.
It just feels better i guess?
Oh what am i talking about. I just feel that my life has changed and everything seems different to me now.
I still happen to have some old memories stored in my head but majority of them have probably been erased or something i dont know.
I feel weird, different and changed. yup.
Yes, i agree that i definitely feel much lonelier and anything else related to that.
But there is something else other than that.
and THAT is what i cant seem to explain or know.
Heh, oh well, as long as its a good feeling then i guess i wont have to bother so much eh. hehe.

sometimes i just feel like closing down this blog.
Why? because even though i still blog, occasionally, i cant seem to be bothered to keep it alive. heh.
But, will not close this blog down. Will just keep it idle, dead or with constant updates.
Will have to see my mood on whether i feel like blogging or not too actually.
If my mood isnt as good, then my posts will be short and boring and you wont enjoy reading it either. heh.
Yeah, no worries, will not close down this blog. Will still update it whenever possible.
And though no one or only a few people read this, it's okay.
I dont want many people reading my blog anyway. Just a small number or none at all is fine.
Im okay with it. Anyway the reason for me having a blog is just to share about events in my life and talk about certain things, not to attract attention or whatever.

oh yeah, my sickness? its recovering well.
Finally feeling much better than before. Thanks goodness.
Finally pulled through being very very sick for more than 1 week.
Thats just horrible. heh.
okay well, i have nothing more to say for now.
It is a boring Sunday anyway. toodles!

yes, i know ive disappeared for quite some time. heh.
well, im really bored now so shall blog. hehe.
2013 is over. Thanks goodness. it was a horrible year. really.
one of the worse years that i ever had in my life and im glad its over.
Welcome to the year of 2014! hopefully would be a better year huh.

Well, im trying to find something to keep myself occupied and busy for the next few months.
And i have no idea yet.
Ever thought of writing a book of my own. possible, but i would only want to do that on a typewriter.
Not because of fun purposes please.
Because using pen and paper would be too tedious and tiring.
Using the computer would be bad for the eyes after prolonged usage.
Therefore, i feel that a typewriter would do just fine. Classic and nostalgic.
Perfect for using for long periods of time and good for writing.
Well otherwise it wont be called a typewriter. heh.

This book that im going to be writing will be about life.
I mean...what easier way to express yourself through a book about your own life.
Yeah, this book would be like a biography.
A book about me.
Not about bragging or showing off.
But rather, about how i grew up, my childhood, some of my little secrets, my accomplishments, failures, disappointments, setbacks, goals and such.
yeap, would be of that sort.
Would do my best to make it like a real book.
With a prologue, epilogue and chapters in between.
Have no sponsors or company or whatsoever, so this should be easy. no complications.

Wow, i started this blog post in the afternoon and continued in the night. hehe.
Well, anyway, the whole day today, was making some life decisions and what to do next with my life.
Finally decided on some things. Will not say it here i guess.
Dont plan to let the whole world know. heh.
I guess thats all for now, will update again soon when necessary. hehe.