i always say that i'll try to keep the blog alive...but i always fail. haha.
Well thats because im busy with school and all that. barely have the time to turn on and use my lappy...except for weekends.

It's alrd June....how time flies.
Half of 2014 has just passed. thats really fast.
getting the hang of school...trying to enjoy it and make it as productive as possible.
Well, proud to say that ever since the first day of school till now, i have not fallen asleep in class before. heheh have been listening attentively.
I hope i can keep this up for the rest of my time in this school.
Track and Field training's getting tougher too. But i gotta admit, i gained so much experience when i was a newbie. Coach made us go for 2 competitions when still a newbie. really had the experience.

Modules getting tougher, training getting harder and soon, will be loaded with assignments, projects and competitions. Yeah its gonna be tiring but thats what makes school fun.
Without all these, school everyday would just be a waste.

Have been thinking a lot lately too...
Like what am i going to do after i finish my higher nitec?
Go to poly? Serve NS? Sign on the Navy?
Yeah, so many things on my mind.
But i most probably want to serve NS first. Why? because it seems like a burden somehow.
Either way, have to serve my 2 years sooner or later. so might as well serve it fast.
Might want to sign on the Navy though. And get a scholarship and study part time in poly.
Well, thats just my plan. anything could happen in between.

But i promise myself something, from today till the day i enlist for NS, i will take care of you, pamper you, etc.
Because the moment i enter NS, i cant do any of that anymore.
And by the time im out......you would probably be with someone else already. in love.
So, i might as well love and take care of you as much as i can now...before you replace me with someone else.
The thought of it scares me but.....it's gonna happen sooner or later. so might as well be mentally prepared. Just like having the fear of injections but you know that you still have to go through it.
Yeah, its the same logic.
I have this "motto" that i live by now.
"It's either you, or nothing."
Pretty simple to understand. and means a lot. i hope you understand.
and if you're reading this, dont feel pressured. if you already found someone you love or enjoy being with, go ahead.
For me, it's either you, or nothing. Means i either get back with you and get married and die tgt with you....OR, nothing. i wont find someone else. i dont want to anyway.
You'd probably have no feelings for me by now. zero. absolutely no feelings.
I know it. By the way you talk to me, by the way you treat me and your body language tells me so.
Maybe im wrong? who knows. but im quite sure your feelings have faded to oblivion.
Well, that's all for now. finger pain alrd. haha.
Will blog again....soon?